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fnwkrf [Sep. 18th, 2005|07:55 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |crazyin love with my baby]
[Current Music |my sisters itunes- jimmy eat worldness]

hello friends

today is sunday and tommorow is monday which means my happiness will be washed away by morning time... i dont like life nemore... we thought last year was bad with all our break downs and depressive times but this year is 80,000 times worse... im always sad at school and im sad when i go home and then i tlak to james and i get happy but then we hang up and im sad again and that goes on for about 5 days unless i get to see him on a week day and im thinking were not going to get to do that to often nemore... jeez i really dont like my life... i hate hate hate it... i feel so alone and out of place like i dont belong and it makes me sick and i cant control my emotions nemore and i just break down at random times and me being sad and mad all the time is making my temper so short that i just snap at ppl and its really horribble to be like this all the time... and even when things make me happy i get sad again when i realize that there going to be gone in a matter of time... like when im with james, im sad at first bc i missed him so much, then i get happy and im happy fora large portion of the day and then i realize that soon enough ill be going home and i wont get to see him for a long ass time, and like one of the few things i like at yonkers is that sam is there and all of her nice friends are there, i love my sammy and she makes me feel better when i see her and my day has been shit bc she seems to care and that makes me feel special... sams friends, elizabeth and waldina mainly, make my day better too  i dont think ne of those lovely seniors know how much better they make me feel...but they really do make me happier even if its just for a few minutes but i kno they will be gone next year and the year will probly be even worse than this one

oh well i miss being with james everyday, last year was sooo great... everynight that i went to bed sad i knew there would be sumone there the next day to make it better or at least not so bad.. but this year i cant really have that unless i call him which is not even in the least bit the same... jeez i miss him soo much, half the time i cant even be happy when im with him and that makes me even sadder... this weekend was good tho i had a lot of fun with him and we talked a lot and it made me feel good.. but its not the same... but its ok... maybe it will get better and ill get used to it and seeing him will be even better than it is now even tho thats kinda hard bc i love seeing him now

oh well i just really miss last year... i miss bonnie.. i miss natasha... i miss nicole... i miss daniel... i just miss museum i even miss mrs wagner and her stupid self and obviously i miss james but i said that b4 so yea... classes are so different withou having bonnie always there to make a face at or talk about sum random linkin park thing or to lay on and do stupid things with.... its not the same without natasha always there to laugh at the same things and just think the same things with me... i miss nicole i havent talked to her in forever and i miss seeing her in the halls and laughing with her and just being with her and talking... i miss daniel and the way he talks even if ppl arent really listening or the way we were in math  and the lovely conversations at lunch... i miss lunch the most... lunch makes me so sad this year i feel so alone and out of place... idk why i have friends but i jsut miss the way it used to be and how special it used to be.. now its so different and i dont really like changes

this year im doing soccer... i like it... but then again i dont... its nice to be on a school team... but its a big commitment and half the time i really dont want to go... but i lie it when i do.. most of the time... idk its weird... oh well... i htink its a good thing but watever

my classes arent that bad.. most of my teachers are pathetic excuses for teachers... they all seem to be kinda out there and not to good a teaching but thats fine with me cause it means less work which is good... oh well... i really wish it was the summer again... the summer was mighty fun... besides the fact that there were sum ppl i would have liked to have seen more... but it was still awesome.. oh well all this shit is random... i hope ur happy i wrote here mr. jamers... cause i did it for ur hiney ur sexy hiney that i love ok... i must go get ice cream bc its good and i like it a ton... ok i love u all... and i LOVE you jamers.

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poop :( [Aug. 20th, 2005|10:07 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |gloomygloomy]
[Current Music |i can here my sister listening to fall out boy]

i miss james...

and he hasnt even left yet

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fun dip! [Aug. 1st, 2005|03:33 am]
megan
[Current Mood |okayjeez i always just feel OKAY]
[Current Music |rise against - swing life away]

yo yo yo

wat up homies?

im in the fabulous state of arizona and its quite stupid

all i did today was go to the pool and it was dum and i did the same thing yesterday and tommorow i have to go to sedona and i dont even kno what that is but im sure im going to hate it and its going to be boring x 2

oh well... i want to go home or at least do sumthing fun besides going to that stupid pool

i want to go to the mall thats here and buy shit, we went today but its sunday and we went too late so everything was closed so we didnt do much

i got ice cream, cotton candy ice cream, bc first off i wanted to see what it tasted like bc that girl rachel from the real world likes it and second bc i wasnt hungry so i wanted sumthing i woudnt eat a lot of

ok here are sum pictures for ppl who care about me and arizona

 

arizona is gay!Collapse )

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monkeys in my pants [Jul. 31st, 2005|01:49 am]
megan

ok i just wanted to see if this would work so i could post sum other pics while im away and i felt like putting this pic bc its dum sexy

yummersCollapse )

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WE'RE ASS FUCKS [Jul. 6th, 2005|03:29 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |THE SCREAMY KIND]

ONCE OPON A TIME THERE WUS A GRIL NAME MEG
SHE WUS A TOTAL ASS FUCK SHE WUS A BITCH ND SHEWUS MEEN TO HER BF ND SHE WAS MEAN TO HER FRIEN
HER FRIEND CUDNT SPELL
MEGAN HAD A WEIRD LITTLE PENIS THING ON HER KEY BOARD WHCIH MADE IT HARD FOR HER FREIDN TO TYPE
MEG ND HER FRIENDS UNDER GARMENTS SHOWED ALOT.. THEY LIKED IT
N E WAY HER FRIEND IS "PREPPY" WUT A FUCK
N E WAY THEY HAD NO LIFES SO THEY WENT ON THE COMPUTER
MEGAN LIKES TO CORREXT HER FRIENDS GRMMER WHOO HOO!!! THEY ATE CHICKEN AND SPICEY GUM MEGAN HAD A VAGINA ND SHE WANTD JAMES TO COME PLAY WIHT IT (JAMES, MEGAN HAD NOTHING TODO WITH IT) N E WAY
SO THEY COMPUTER IS REALLY HOT AND BURNS THE LEGS OF MEGAN ND HER FRIEND
MEGAN SERIOYUSLY WISHES HER NAME WAS ARNOLD ARNALDISN
SHE REALLY REALLY WANTS ROHNDA
MEGAN WANTS ROHNDA !!! SHE LIKES PRANKIE CALLS ! OHHH AGUSTUS OHH
HOLEY POOP ON TOAST IM THE SHIZNAZ
THIS IS NICOLE
SHE IS SUCH A HOTT FUCKING SEX MUFFIN
NE WAY WE HEART NATASHA CUS SHEES A CAMP GOGER ND A GOOGY GOOBY GOOBER -----------------------------------
**********************************************************************************************************
MY TURN MY TURN
NICOLIO DOESNT LIKE MY AIR CONDITIONER OR MY PENIS WHAT A FUCKO
TODAY I WANTEED TO GO FUK IN A POOL BUT MY FUKEE HAD TO GO SHOPPING TOO BAD FOR OUR PRIVATE PARTS
I AM MEAN AND NICOLE SAYS IM A BITCH ON THE PHONE TO MY BOO THATS NOT HER
I AM SORRY TO HIM FOR BEING AN ASS BITCH BUT I WANTED TO FUK IN THE POOL
I AM ALSO SRRY TAT MY HAR FROM MY HEAD IS IN MY UNDER WEAR AND IT MAKES ME LOOK LIKE I HAV REALLY LONG PUBIC HAIR ALSO IM SRRY TAHT IM A BIZACH TO NICOLE CUS SHEES A HOTT SEX MO FO
SHE HAS NO PENIS THATS Y IM THIS WAY BUT IN REALITY SHES GOT QUITE A LARGE PENIS AND SHE CAN MOVE IT UP AND DOWN IF U TOUCH INBETWEEN HER SCROTOM AND ANUS
I SECRETLY LOVE THE FOOD NETWORK IT MAKES ME ALL WET TO WATCH THEM COOK THEM SAUSAGES
NICOLE JUST SAID FAG.. I THINK THATS A HURTFUL WORD AND I DONT APPRECIATE IT
WE R LOOKING AT PICTURES... IT IS FUN
SOON I WILL HAVE A HAT FAT BOTH WALL BC WE ARE WEARING HATS IN THE PICTURES AND WE LOOK FAT YUM
JAMES, I LOVE UR LIPS, I HAVE A SUPER COOL PIC OF UR FACE AND UR LIPS LOOK BIG AND TASTY AND NOW I WANT THEM, BRING THEM TO ME, GUESS WHAT, TODAY IS WED AN I DO NOT GET TO SEE U AND TOMMOROW IS THURSDAY AND UR GOING TO SEE DR DAN SO I WONT SEE U AGAIN AND ILL BE MUCHO BORED AND SAD AND THEN FRIDAY WILL COME AND WE PROBLY WONT SEE EACHOTHER AGAIN AND THEN ITLL BE THE WEEKEND AND WELL HAVE TO DO WEEKEND STUFF SO I STILL WONT SEE U AND THEN ILL DIE AND ULL BE TOO BUSY DOING UR HW TO COME TO MY FUNERAL
BUT THEN WEEL GO TO OHIO CUS ITS FOR SUPER LOVERS AND ILL COME BACK TO LIFE
=============================================+====+++++==========+===========+++++====================
SO NOW ITS M TURN
.. YEA IM GNN END THIS NOW SO W/E
BY I HEART YALL
STAY GANGSTA
HHEEHE
PEACE
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(no subject) [Jun. 29th, 2005|09:06 am]
megan
[Current Mood |flirtyhearts]

Natasha Is Hot Sex And I Love It !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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rawr [May. 11th, 2005|10:48 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |hornyhorny but blank]
[Current Music |no music just the tv]

BOO

no one ever updates nemore... its so sad... if u ppl dont update what do u expect me to do after school

oh well i have nothing interesting to say

im watching meet the barkers... this is like the best show ever... its so stupid

hmmm... nothing interesting happened today... at least i dont think

hehe they asked travis (the drummer for blink 182, who has a show meet the barkers)daughter what she was thankful for and she said their elevator... golly their one weird family

nikicia wants to look like janet jackson bc janet jacksons got it going on

lalalalalalala this is very dum and pointless

but i dont care!!!

holy moley i have no idea what to write... my mind is empty tonite

poop on my mind... its never empty... oh well

too bad... im done now

now everyone else go and update ur livejournals so i can read and become more knowledgable
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2005|11:31 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |indescribableindescribable]
[Current Music |linkin park- live in texas]

i fucking hate everything... im a stupid fuck... and i like the word fuck.. so im going to use it as many fucking times as i can... i dont even have nething to say other than FUCK... id make that bigger... but it wont work so its a small fuck but its supose to be a big one... oh well... miss mendes is a loser... her stupid fucking movie project fucking sucks.. all its done is made the majority of the ppl in my group mad... it took us 3 periods to come up with crap... that natasha and i changed around completely today... so the rest of u better like it bc i really dont want to change this stupid things again... gsjdn;hjdhtn.... FUCK... i like crawling... im watching the live in texas dvd... it kinda makes me happy... but it also make me want to smash my face into sumthing... well maybe its not the dvd... more like my mood plus this lovely music... that makes me want to scream... but i cant... so i dont.. and that makes it worse... i dont even cry sadness nemore... its like im in a fucking rage.... im so sad... that it makes me soo mad... that my anger takes over... and im just one angry bitch... and im not even sure if i kno why im sad or mad and even if i did kno i probably wouldnt tell neone bc im a stupid fuck like that... wheni cried in music that day... i wasnt mad, just sad... idk why... but i wish it was mroe like that every time i cried... i hate hating myself.... its the most ridiculous thing... i almost hate evrything about me... thats not good... but oh well... ill deal with it because i dont kno how to fix it ... and sumone loves me enough for the whole world... yea so fuck.... fuckidy fuck fuck fuck ... lit ended... stupid fucking dvd... hehe this is kinda fun... it says i fucking love you on my arm.... i fucking love the person who wrote that... there fucking lovely... ok im done being a stupid fuck... tommorow im going to be a fine fuck and i wont be nehting like the fuck im being right now but to end this id just like to say... FUCK YOU
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poops [Apr. 8th, 2005|11:00 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |weirdweird]
[Current Music |nin-hurt]

Dear natasha,
ok i didnt name my journal natasha... but im pretty sure her and james are the only 2 ppl who read this... and i also kno that natasha enjoys reading it so this is to her. ok well natasha im bored... so i write here... about my sad pathetic life. today i went to school... it was like... well.. umm.. school, yea.. almost everydays the same, oh well.. we still seem to find a little bit of fun everyday.
today we wrote on my boobies and you, natasha, exposed your breasteses to sumone u shouldnt have... oh well it made me giggle a lot. natasha, i just thought u should kno that i cleaned of my breasteses... well everything except the lovely flower you drew... i liked it a lot.. hehe yea well today my sister saw her friends mom, who just so happens to be our lovely italian teacher, she said that i was smart... that makes me laugh, she also said sumthing about me and james, and suprisingly it wasnt sumthing bad. woo hoo... i didnt have to work today, which makes me very happy, because i dont like smelly babies that drool all over me and make me smell weird. so instead james came to my house for like not too long... we were going to talk, but then my dad decided to talk to us, which i found to be quite annoying but oh well, lifes a poop and then u die. oh well then james left and i went to stew leonards with my dad... i got lovely icecream in a cup with sprinkles, it was truly magikal, actually it kinda made me feel a little sick.. oh well...

ok well this week kind of sucked... i was being a sad poop and i felt like breaking something.. i kno that sounds weird.. but idk how else to describe it.. its like i kept clenching my fist and trying to squueze as hard as i possibly could until i felt better... but that didnt work so i continued to do it, but it never did nething for me but i did til i felt i couldnt do it nemore anyway. yea... remember when i broke the pencil in science... thats why i did that... it gave me some form of relief.. idk it was better then continuously clenching my fist. yea and the rest of the week i either felt like i was going to pass out or throw up. i dont like feeling like this its poop and it makes my heart hurt.. you kno what else i dont like.. every time i stand up i feel extremely dizzy and i cant see nething for about 10 seconds.. oh well ive been feeling weird lately and i want it to go away.. but im not good at making things go away.. bc my lovely mind doesnt like me to be happy.. it likes to give me disturbing thoughts and what not. i think i make myself sick to my stomach when i think.. bc ive gone to sleep with like pains in my stomach... im completely fine b4 i lay down but when i do laydown i think and cry and cant make it go away and then my stomach hurtsand i feel like im going to throw up and all that wonderful stuff.. thats why i look so dead in the morning, its like i dont sleep instead i lay there and cry and feel sick, which is emotionally draining and causes me to look dead and make me feel unlively. oh well... im not going to do that anymore... i hate it and its annoying... im going to find a way to block out my thoughts... i dont kno how but im going to do it.. woo hoo for me.. oh well.. im done... i think.. i dont kno.. if i remember sumthing else to add.. i guess ill add it later...
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mooo [Mar. 20th, 2005|10:04 pm]
megan
[Current Mood |sicksick]
[Current Music |somwhere i belong- linkin park]

Today is chester from linkin parks birthday.... yay for him
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAZ!!!

this weekend sucked i didnt do anything and i feel like crap i basically layed around all yesterday and i couldnt get out of bed until like 2 today... and then i took medicine, sumthing i rarely do and then i felt better but now i feel like crap again oh well, ill still be going to school unless my father sumhow stops me, im a loser i feel like poops and i still want to go to school... oh well

AM I:
1. Quiet or Loud:
2. Short or Tall:
3. Weird or Original:
4. Nice or Mean:
5. Friendly or Selfish:
6. Normal or "Special":
7. Clever or Dumb:
8. Boring or Fun:
9. Attractive or Unattractive:

DO YOU THINK I'M:
1. A psycho:
2. Athletic:
3. A nerd:
4. Annoying:

JUST SOME QUESTIONS:
1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up:
2. Do u think I'll get married:
3. When is my birthday:
4. Who's in my posse:
5. What is my fav. food:
6. What song (if any) reminds you of me:
7. Do I remind you of any characters on TV:
8. If you could rename me, what would my name be:
9. Have you ever had a dream about me:
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be:
11. Am I physically ugly, average, decent, good-looking, beautiful:
12. If you could describe me in one word ... what would that word be:
13. Do you wish we were closer:
14. What's your favorite thing about me:
15. How would you describe me to someone else:
16: What do I do to make you happy:
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